I Go Back

We all have that one crush on a certain person in high school that we dont tell anyone about. You know, the one you keep secret, even from your best friend. Its not because this person is ugly, or not what people expect. You keep it secret because you want that one thing thats yours. But you also keep it secret because you dont want anything to change.

Well, I had that one crush. We were some-what friends. But then, in high school I was some-what friends with everybody. He had a little sister that he was close with. She was 2 years younger than we are. And when she entered 9th grade I had a class with her. It was an art class. I took her under my wing and we became friends. That brought me closer to him, lets call him Scotty.

Why do I bring this up? Well, running around trying to frantically finish up my holiday shopping I ran into him. I tried to hide but he saw me. I didnt even think he would remember me. But he did. And we talked for a bit. And then all those feelings came rushing back to me. I had forgotten how I had felt about him. You suppress things sometimes. And thats one of those things I suppressed.

And now I cant stop thinking about him. I try, but I cant. Now I have a question for yall. What do you think  I should do? Should I facebook him or no? I kind of miss the days when I hung out with him and his sister.

~Luci

Current Mood: Tired, scared, quizzical

Tonights quote: You spend twelve years of your life trying to learn how to live, but every time you do try to live in those twelve years you're told you're wrong. Then everyone you've grown to love is taken away and scattered. That's what they should teach you. How to say good-bye and let go.

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