Mix Up....Mash Up.....FML

Sometimes I wish I was someone other than me....Fighting to make the mirror happy....I count on the make-up to cover it all....Crying myself to sleep because I can not keep their attention....I thought I could be strong....But its killing me....Does someone hear my cry....Im dying for new life....I want to be beautiful....Make you stand in awe....I want to hear you say....Who I am is quite enough....I shouldnt love you but I want to....I just cant turn away....And I dont know how to be fine when Im not....Cause I dont know how to make a feeling stop....Im sick of this life....I just want to scream....And I cant stand the pain....And I cant make it go away....Id do anything just to hold you in my arms....Id do anything just to fall asleep with you....I cant pretend I dont care....When you dont think about me....Im trying to forget that Im addicted to you....But I want it and I need it....How long will I be waiting?....I dont know why Im still waiting....Cant make you mine....I wish I could scream out loud....That I love you....Drowning in my lonliness....How long must I hold my breath?....So much emptiness inside I could fill the deepest sea....If I could say what I want to say....Id say I want to blow you away....Be with you every night....If I could say what I want to see....I want to see you go down on one knee....Marry me today....I guess Im wishing my life away....With these things I'll never say....

~Luci